New York!!

Well friends that's right im here in New York and having a wonderful time with all my family and friends. Seeing my grandmother took a huge weight off my shoulder, being that she is very sick i know that i dont have much time left with her. She walks around helping anyone in sight and asks for nothing in return, i guess her mother was right to name her Santa "Saint" in English. My father chose me, his first baby girl to carry his mothers name as well , hmmm now that i think about it that might explain why im so open and helpful to everyone... I wonder if the names we are given define who we will become or is it a small whisper from god to our parents when the are made aware of our arrival???  Well i know i want to name my daughter Aoki and my son Santiago... (im seriously hoping for twins)  the middle name will most like be taken from another of my family members to strengthen our bond as a family.. My little sister is not so little anymore and its like im living my teenage years all over again when im around her. I see my same sadness in her though and that hurts me to my core because i know it all too well. She resents my father for not being there for her during her most important process of her life, she wants nothing to do with him and its his fault. I guess since im older now ive gotten over the anger and just focused on having my family back together again, shes just not there yet. I love her so deeply and no distance could break our bond.  Now here in Rochester im surrounded by the three most influential young women in my life Neisha, jessica and Melissa have been my bestfriends since middle school. We have all changed so much yet some how managed to keep whats important the same, our hearts. Asi i visit with theyre familys , party, and share my greatest dreams and darkest fears i feel somewhat rejuvinated as if  i was washed of all the stress and hurt of past so called "friends" and now moving freely with the people i love and trust the most. Nothing in the world would ever change the love i have for these girls, the have always bee and will always be my Very best friends. =)