New York!!

Well friends that's right im here in New York and having a wonderful time with all my family and friends. Seeing my grandmother took a huge weight off my shoulder, being that she is very sick i know that i dont have much time left with her. She walks around helping anyone in sight and asks for nothing in return, i guess her mother was right to name her Santa "Saint" in English. My father chose me, his first baby girl to carry his mothers name as well , hmmm now that i think about it that might explain why im so open and helpful to everyone... I wonder if the names we are given define who we will become or is it a small whisper from god to our parents when the are made aware of our arrival???  Well i know i want to name my daughter Aoki and my son Santiago... (im seriously hoping for twins)  the middle name will most like be taken from another of my family members to strengthen our bond as a family.. My little sister is not so little anymore and its like im living my teenage years all over again when im around her. I see my same sadness in her though and that hurts me to my core because i know it all too well. She resents my father for not being there for her during her most important process of her life, she wants nothing to do with him and its his fault. I guess since im older now ive gotten over the anger and just focused on having my family back together again, shes just not there yet. I love her so deeply and no distance could break our bond.  Now here in Rochester im surrounded by the three most influential young women in my life Neisha, jessica and Melissa have been my bestfriends since middle school. We have all changed so much yet some how managed to keep whats important the same, our hearts. Asi i visit with theyre familys , party, and share my greatest dreams and darkest fears i feel somewhat rejuvinated as if  i was washed of all the stress and hurt of past so called "friends" and now moving freely with the people i love and trust the most. Nothing in the world would ever change the love i have for these girls, the have always bee and will always be my Very best friends. =)

WOW!!

 Hmm where to start?  well..  I JUST GOT MY MARY KAY STARTER KIT!!!  i cant even explain the excitment and joy starting my own business is bringing to my life. I alreday have about 5 potential customers and 4 sure-thing customers with more on the way! I honestly believe Mary Kay is going to be my ticket to the top! I am still 100% focused  becoming a child psychologist / life coach but i figure why not network and meet some peole who can help me too. I got a phone call today saying that i won an all enclusive trip to the Bahamas for 2! Im soooo excited and i really hope i will be able to go. God has rally been blessings me and i have been doing my share as well, i have been hoping that me good karma that i put out into the universe would pay off and it has! Im almost afraid to see what wonderful doors will be opened up next!

MARY KAY!!! YaY!!

Ok so this past weekend a good friend of mine invited me to a free facial event with Mary Kay out in dekalb and to say the least i was in awe. I got to test out some products and get a full run down of the buiseness its self all in one day. Mary Kay's products are by far the best i have ever used, i love make up so its a big thing when im taken by suprise like this. All in all i was sold, i am ordering my starter kit this friday and i cant wait to have my first Mary Kay party. For once in my life i feel like im making a good investment financialy, socially, and mentally. I have always considered myself a natural- born leader, all around people person really so now i have the opportunity to do what comes naturally to me and make money from it. This new venture will force me to step out of my comfort zone and challenge me to meet all my big time goals. I have been blessed by my supportive family to have the buisness sense to make me successful , they really are my biggest fans and i appreciate them so much. This summer i plan to travel to Schenectady NY, Rochester NY, and finally my big move to florida, my game plan is to challenge myself and see how much mary kay i can sell on each of these vacations, i have family and friends in each of these places so im planning to start with them first then branch out. I love that i dont have to be that pushy sales person lying about my product just to make money, with this buiseness i can remain humble and conduct myself in a honarable way. I dont have to explain what these products can do i can just show it! My main concern when joining Mary Kay was the extra income but honestly i feel as though im about to gain so much more along the way.

So im moving to FLORIDA this summer....

Well today is May 2nd and the reality of my big move is taking me by surprise. Dont get me wrong i am very excited to move in with my aunt, uncle and  baby cousin because whenever im there i feel true happiness like never before. My aunt always has this strong calming affect on me, its as if whenever im around her she absorbs my troubles and stress then produces wisdom and love from the very thing that was tearing me up inside. I do beleieve that god assigns certain "Guardian Angels" to every person and My aunt is mine; just as a guide she offers wisdom and suggestion sprinkled with truth and even when i dont always listen to her advice she loves me just the same. Wow! isnt it something to recieve unconditional love.. But with  great joy comes equally great sorrow , I will miss my two bestfriends very much when i move. Zee and Kareem are the best things to happen to me since ive lived in georgia, they have truely been the best of friends the entire time. Yes ,sure Zee and i have had our ups and downs but somehow we always end up together. Kareem is the exact male version of myself! We have so much fun doing absolutly nothing at all, were just wierd like that. He is insanly honest .. (almost brutal) but just perfectly enough for me because if its one thing i have learned its that with Honesty comes Loyalty and for me loyalty is thicker than blood. Yes this move will be both bitter and sweet but like always...  i will make the best of it.  =)